Life:  Hey there, here goes another therapy session for myself.  I was stressed to the hilt this morning after getting off work at 6 am.  My youngest, DS3, has been having friends over for the past 5 days or so.  I am on a 16-day work streak.  I am very picky about having a clean living space.  I came home to garbage overflowing, dishes that had been there for 2 days with food still on them, wrappers all over the living room floor and the 9-week old puppy Sassy not in her crate (yes, I named my blog after my baby).  Then, to walk into the bathroom and find the toilet completely clogged and unusable.  I played with the dog like I normally do to try and tire her out, and got to sleep about 10 am.  Before going to sleep, I texted my son (he was still sleeping) and told him the toilet needed to be dealt with along with the rest of the mess.  I woke up just before 4 pm, to find out son had called maintenance for help.  With my apartment a total wreck.  Apparently, he did not take Sassy out like he should have and she had a couple of accidents.  He cleaned them up with wet wipes, which did not flush.  Face palm.  I am embarrassed that the apartment maintenance man came into my place the way it was.  Before leaving for work, I left him instructions on cleaning including steam cleaning the carpets.  He is normally a pretty good kid, so I think the stern talking to is enough for now.

Finances:  I have attempted a budget for the next 3 pay checks.  I need to get bills paid, which will happen, but I am also going on vacation with the youngest and possibly my 18-year-old and his GF for the first time on my own.  Just a camping trip with kayaking, but something I haven't done in years due to finances.  Even when I was married, I rarely took days off.  I was an independent contractor and we needed my checks.  I am really looking forward to this.  I need to put some money away to help get my son a vehicle and also start an emergency fund for myself.  I have read up on Dave Ramsey's steps and I may start the program to get my ducks in a row.  I don't know the best way on how to post the budget, I will have to figure that out.

As far as debt goes, this is what I have:

IRS:  $2500
Credit Card #1:  $1200
Credit Card #2:  $1350
Credit Card #3:  $500
Credit Card #4:  $400
Furniture loan:  $1468 ($740 early buyout)

I just finished paying off my medical bills!

My credit score sucks.  It is 592 on Experian, 620 on Equifax and 564 Transunion.  I expect it to improve with the last medical bill paid in full and a correction to my report as well.  The biggest impact to my score is a bankruptcy in 2011 and credit card balances too high.  I have a goal of buying myself a house next year, if the divorce goes through and the house sells.  Being a vet, I can take out a VA loan with no PMI.

Weight:  I weighed in this morning at 268.  I was at 200 in February 2017, worked out at the gym 5-6 days a week and looked great.  During the failed reconciliation, I gained and gained.  He didn't want me at the gym (jealous) and would always pack my lunches and make breakfast and dinner, never anything healthy.  I truly believed he wanted me heavy so that no other men would look at me, then he would tell me how I let myself go.  He would criticize me if I wore makeup to work, had to wear sweatshirts which was not my normal.  He drove me back and forth to work, always escorted.  This all sent me into a spiraling depression that I am successfully pulling myself out of, slowly.  Let's get back to the weight.  I didn't do bad today.  I had my Shakeology, had frozen Healthy Choice for dinner (16-day streak and running low on fresh food), romaine lettuce salad with Italian, and snuck in some jerky and a peanut butter cup.  I didn't get any exercise in today, but I will tomorrow.  I actually have 2 days off!!!  This time will allow me to prep my food for the next 3 day work shift and exercise.  I'm going to get my confidence back before that wedding in 80 days!

I think this is enough for post #2, I don't want to overwhelm anyone, lol.

Have a great day!